Bagless Update Page

Hmmnn... Now how can I get a bunch of people to visit me....

Greg "Bagless" Brakel

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Greg is presently at HOME. His home number 770-432-9338 and his cell phone 678-296-3201…he is answering the phone at home if he is out of bed…it is a speaker phone. He can also call people back – there is an answering machine. He is also checking messages to his cell phone and doing the best to get back to those folks as well.

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Greg Brakel
3576 Dyer Parke Lane
Marietta, GA 30060

May 8, 2005

What better way to commemorate a skydiving accident than to jump out of a plane! Yes, it is done! I jumped as a tandem yesterday afternoon. I missed it sooooooooo much. That’s not to say there weren’t any warning signs. I was scheduled to jump on load #13. there were 13 people on the plane with me. The air was a little turbulent at 13,000’. You get the picture. Once again my “goal-oriented” (translated stubborn) personality won out at 15,000’ and we moved to the open door of the plane. Surprisingly, I wasn’t very nervous about exiting the plane. I did, as expected, get nervous as we were landing. My greatest fear did not come to pass. I have remembered all but the last 100’ of the jump on which I was injured. My fear was that the “missing” memories would flood back in as we were landing. Fortunately, it did not happen. I know for certain that I will jump again, but I may never be able to go solo. My upper body is not strong enough to fight the wind in freefall and my right hand could not grip well enough to deploy the parachute. I may be able to overcome those deficiencies, but common sense does occasionally visit my mind to keep my adventurous spirit in check. All-in-all, jump #233 was a wonderful and necessary experience. For now, I’ll stick to rugby. but next year...

April, 2005 - From Bagless

At long last, an update! Here I sit in front of my pc with no bills, no taxes, no insurance claims, no work and not a ton of emails to answer. After a long day behind a pc at work I typically avoid turning my own on but the activities of the past 6 months require me to do some typing. I know, y’all have no sympathy for a computer geek, so I’ll just cut to the chase…

Last week saw my 2nd horror-versary/anniversary/analversary, or whatever you want to call it. The day started out like most other weekdays, to darn early. I awoke at 5:20am to the cat (she adopted us shortly before Xmas) gnawing on my toes because she wanted food. It wouldn’t have killed her to wait 10 minutes until the alarm went off! I guess she figured that she was safe knowing that most days I wouldn’t have the dexterity or strength to throw anything at her much less get the object within 2 feet of her. I keep working on it though and expect to surprise her sometime in the next 10 years. After getting up, I wheeled over to begin my morning ablutions thinking to myself what can I do to top last year? 1yr post – walk out of hospital. 2yr post - ???. needless to say I went to work, muttering under my breath, cursing the gods of paycheck and bills. As you might expect with such an auspicious beginning, the day just sucked. But the day after saw the latest major achievement.

On the 28th of April, Alexis and I went out to dinner to support a local charity event. We drove in her car and were forced to park on the road. For the past 2 years, curbs have been a nightmare especially those of the 5inch tall variety that had no curb cuts nearby. “No problem!” said he who never overestimates his abilities (yeah right). This time would be different and it was. First I stood up out of a Civic, which some of you may know is fairly low to the ground. Then, not to be daunted by a mere curb, I stepped up and was able to lift myself onto the sidewalk and then sit in my wheelchair without falling. Mind you, the car door and I were pretty close friends. After a mediocre meal and a nice glass of wine, we made our way back to the car to once again visit ‘The Curb’. Surprisingly, I was able to stand out of my chair, step down off the curb and sit in the car without killing myself! This time, the car door and I weren’t friendly, we were entwined like lovers, but hey, I still did it.

Over the past 6 months, that is the highlight of my achievements. That is not to say there were no others:
- I can finally touch the top of my head with my right hand.
- I can stand and balance unassisted for 2-3 minutes.
- I have begun walking around the house in a walker up to about 200ft.
- I bought a used rugby chair and was knocked out of it for the 1st time.
- I received a disbursement from the GA Brain & Spinal Injury Trust that allowed us to add a ramp and deck to Alexis’ house so I can visit without having neighbors muscle me up stairs.
- My left hand is getting better at typing.
- I was able to put my brace and shoes on by myself.

The obvious gains are becoming more infrequent. My body’s recovery is slowing and in some cases in reverse. I have lost some function that I had regained in previous months. Frustration has been a monkey on my back for quite some time. I may have learned patience since the accident, but I’m still me and I get really ticked off at the negatives. As has been said all along, there is no telling where my recovery will end. I just wish it could be controlled by my mind and determination instead of the ability of my nerves to ‘regenerate’. Add burnout to the mix. I still go to physical therapy twice per week and it is wearing me down. OK, out of the dark place…

I’m sure that some of you out there are thinking “Wasn’t he planning to skydive on his 2-year mark?” The answer is yes, but the weather said no. Be aware, though, there are 32 of y’all that promised to jump when I did again. Easy to say when I was strapped in a power wheelchair and barely able to move. :-) I won’t, however, hold you to it. I have never encouraged anybody to do it if they didn’t want to, but if you’re willing, find a DZ near you or email me and I’ll try to hook you up.

As to my everyday life, it is much like before the accident. A 5-day work week that occasionally goes 6 or 7. I often don’t sleep enough. I’m back to reading, although only 1-2 books per month instead of per week. This spring and summer look to bring back my traveling although much more limited. I just keep moving forward.

On-On to Blue Skies!

October 10th, 2004 - Update from Bagless

Warning! This is an alert to all Atlanta area drivers. Greg has passed his driving evaluation. In the near future, he will be back on the road behind the wheel of a van. Warning!

Yes, folks, the State of Georgia has finally agreed to let me begin driving again. I took an evaluation this past Wednesday to determine if I would be able to successfully control a vehicle. With some minor adaptations (a left-sided gas pedal and steering wheel knob) I was able to drive a test vehicle around Atlanta successfully. With a great deal of caution, mind you, but successfully. Due to the paralysis in my right side, I'll work the gas and brake with my left foot and steer with my left arm. Before anyone gets nervous, I have an additional five hours of training prior to receiving the "prescription" for the van modifications. After the van is modified, I have additional training required. Needless to say, it will be at least a month. Both Alexis and I are eagerly awaiting the day that I return to driving because both our freedoms are going to be increased. I will no longer require a "chauffeur".

Other news: I have recently been able to stand and balance on my own for over a minute for the first time. This certainly makes pulling my pants up much easier. :-) of course, such a success must be balanced with a major failure. Well maybe not a failure but definitely not a positive. I spent almost three hours on the floor yesterday. I was in my loaner wheelchair upstairs at my home when I leaned forward to place a book on the back of the couch when some little gremlin tipped it over. The gremlin happily clapped his hands and green and grinned as I began to fall forward but ended up frowning and tapping his foot as it took so long to hit the floor. During the next 50 minutes, I managed to crawl across my living room only to realize that I could not reach the phone. I then crawled back over to the couch and attempted to climb onto it three times. Close but no cigar! Conveniently, Alexis left for laptop on the floor and due to the wonders of modern technology, I was able to e-mail a friend in New York State to have her call Alexis at school here in Atlanta to come home and pick me up. The good news is that I've discovered I can get onto all fours. The bad news is that my leg spasms still prevent me from climbing onto furniture. Lesson to Greg: hurry up and walk so you don't need the crappy loaner wheelchair anymore.

Signing off for now because it's time for football!

September 20th - Update from Bagless

I know that it's been a few weeks since my last update (OK, six plus), but this update won't be terribly long:

Since the end of July, not too much has changed. The majority of my time has been dominated by work. Unfortunately, my time with Poseidon has come to an end. At least it was by my own choice because I start my job tomorrow. Wait too early in the morning, but tomorrow. Yes, that is the big news. I am celebrating a return to a consistent paycheck and more importantly benefits. As much as I enjoyed the money received as a consultant, health insurance has become far more important than dollars. So it's back into the realm of automotive where I'll be working in IT support.

On the fun side, wheelchair rugby season has begun. I term this as "fun" very loosely because my arms are killing me. I pushed my first timed mile two weeks ago. Just under 17 minutes I crossed the finish line and my arms stopped working. That maybe not stopped working but more "I'm on strike". I very quickly understood that I am very out of shape. I used to say round is a shape but I no longer have a keg-ish figure to maintain, so I've lost that excuse. Basically, I am just a wimp and am whining about training. I thought physical therapy was tough. At least practices only two hours a day twice a week.

Other fun stuff included an out-of-town campout in Ohio. I finally got away from Alexis for a weekend. To tell the truth, she went to a conference in San Francisco and got rid of me for a weekend, but who is telling the story? Either way, it was a fun weekend and I got to see a lot of people that I haven't seen since before the accident. It was great!

Gotta go for now. The alarm clock will buzz far too soon!

July 25th - Update from Bagless

Once again, it is time to visit the past few weeks. Day by day I continue to reintegrate myself into the "real-world" with employment, social gatherings and athletics. Work has been going well and my five-week contract was extended through the end of August. Needless to say, I'm very happy about this because I finally feel like I have cleaned of the cobwebs out of my mind. It seems to function normally or at least as normally as can be applied to me. :-) I think it has been a decade since the word "normal" has been used in the same sentence as my name! Normal is boring so I'm OK with it.

As for athletics, I still play wheelchair rugby every week. I've been trying out different chairs recently to find which is best for me. I found different aspects that work very well but they don't yet exist in a single chair. As a result, I'm looking into having one built for me. We'll see what happens. The new season starts the end of August and I'm looking forward to it.

The update now moves into the social gatherings category. I expect that the following text will not be as dry and boring as the previous. :-) For those of you who are not familiar with Atlanta activities, on July 4 of each year Atlanta hosts one of the largest 10k running events in the US, the Peachtree Road Race. The first group to start the Peachtree is the wheelchair racers. Being an occasionally competitive person, I did consider joining this part of the event. My consideration lasted all of about two sips of Guinness when I remembered "cardiac hill", the section of Peachtree Road that runs in front of the Shepherd Center. My arms hurt just thinking about it. Although I have run the race in the past, in the three years prior to my accident I've always enjoyed the company of my fellow pub crawler's version of the event. Since there is a wheelchair division to the Road Race, Alexis and I decided that we should have a wheelchair division to the pub crawl. To inaugurate the establishment of this new division Alexis jumped in my power wheelchair to join me on the course. We met up with the hashers at Three Dollar Cafe to begin the day with screwdrivers and Bloody Marys as we cheered on the Kenyans and everybody else that ate their dust. Once the first 30,000 or so runners went past, the pub crawl began. Luckily, it was downhill to the first two beer stops. My arms weren't tired but I was already developing blisters from hitting the brakes. (My hands are the brakes) Needless to say, when we got to the start of the 3+ miles of uphill I grabbed onto a strap on the back of the power wheelchair as if I was waterskiing. It was a very pleasant ride to the third beer stop but after passing the Shepherd Center Alexis warned me that she was about to speed up and I didn't let go. More specifically, my "goal oriented" personality wouldn't allow me back down from the challenge of holding on. As they were helping me back into my wheelchair I was pleased to note that my bloody elbow and knee actually hurt. I figure that things are going well if I can feel pain after spinal cord injury and quite a few beers. My physical terrorists always warned me that I would fallout of chair but I doubt she had that in mind! After that I decided to ask for someone to push me. Turned out that that was better because I didn't spill my beer anymore. Two more beer stops and we approach the end of the course. As we reached the end I led a number of my fellow pub crawlers into the first aid tent with a hearty yell of "Help! I can't feel my legs!". My friends were mortified, the paramedics were stunned and the injured runners got a chuckle. We left very quickly after that. :-)

The next weekend, we went to a low country boil at a friend's house. We had a nice time next to the lake filling our bellies. When it was time to go, I had some help getting over the rough terrain until he got near the van. As Alexis opened the door, I decided that I could push myself of the ramp forgetting that it was slightly uphill and my anti-tip bars were removed. One good push and back I went proving once again that my head is tougher than dirt. I'm not sure if that's a good thing but it does seem true. All in all, not one of the best weeks of wheelchair stability for Greg.

I think that sums up the key points of the past couple weeks. As I said, things are returning to the way they were.

June 14th - Update from Bagless

Followers forgive me for I have sinned. It has been five weeks since my last update. OK, OK, no more of that. I make no excuses for my delay this time because I have been frighteningly busy. (In a good way) I have returned to work as of May 25! Instead of 40 hours a week of rehab now I do 40 hours a week in the office. I accepted a five-week consulting contract through the month of June. I am working as an operations manager supervising installation and maintenance of computer vision systems. Initially, it was a bit of a challenge to work from the wheelchair but it has gotten much easier over the past two weeks. My handwriting is improving. It is now partially legible like a med student's instead of its previous doctor status. My ability to type with my left hand is improving and occasionally my right hand joins in. I had hoped that Ray Charles's spirit would bless my hands but I think he just laughed and kept going. As such, data entry is not in my immediate future but I'm pretty sure that I'm OK with it. :-) Opening doors is becoming easier so I am thinking that I should try cracking safes next. At the rate I'm improving, I could become a burglar in about a hundred years. To top it off, my right hand has shown itself to be moderately competent with a computer mouse so I won't have to get rid of it.

As far as the surgery went, all is well. I find it curious how well the body can function with so many bones missing. If you ever decide that you tired of having a bone to blame for what ails you, just remove it. The doctor removed a portion of the fourth metatarsal of my right foot in about an hour and I was healed and cleared for weight-bearing in two weeks. All I need now is enough time to walk around. OK, that and a new orthotic for the right ankle which conveniently is scheduled to be molded next Tuesday. Hopefully, that we all I need. :-) In the meantime I will enjoy knocking people out of their wheelchairs during rugby practice. You have to love the game that allows you to do that.

On the fun side, Memorial Day weekend was very enjoyable. I thoroughly enjoyed Camp Hedon down in Newnan, Georgia. Seeing everybody at the campsite was a blast, however, I think that Hedon is going to hell! Warm showers? Chess instead of beer pong? Most people asleep before 1 a.m.? At least they had every kind of deep-fried food imaginable; corn dogs, french fries, burritos, Oreos, Twinkies. (The fried Oreos were much better than the fried Twinkies by the way) oh yeah, I certainly won't complain about my use of the "Hedon Hilton" because the air-conditioning was wonderful Sunday afternoon when everyone else was roasting in the sun. :-)

Finally, the contract for the renovations of my house has been signed. They are supposed to begin this Thursday. It should take about three weeks. I am seriously ready to go back upstairs. I cannot wait to sleep in my own bed, eat meals at my kitchen table and get out of my basement for the first time since August! As much as I love my DVDs, I will not come into this room for a longtime. In preparation, we had a small work party on Saturday. We emptied two closets, half of my garage and then stained my back deck. Well I say "we", I just sat back to watch and provide moral support for those kind souls who worked on my home. At least that provided pizza and beer…

I think that will be it for now. I have a bowl of ice cream waiting for me and I'm feeling somewhat selfish.

May 3rd - Update from Bagless

It is Monday, my first weekday out of therapy. I finally have the time to finish all of the projects that I started. However, I find myself thinking back on the past week. Last weekend, a couple of my friends from Dayton, Ohio came down to visit. I, of course, immediately put them to work Saturday morning planting shrubs in my yard and staining my deck. :-) As a reward, I took them to another local hasher’s house for her "Empty the Bar" party. I figured, knowing how hashers drink, that I would let them consume someone else's beverages. :-)

On Tuesday, April 27, we "celebrated" the one-year anniversary of that horrible day. Contrary to my expectations, the day was actually enjoyable. My girlfriend arranged a surprise for me with the help of my mom and my therapists. I walked (yes, walked) out the front door of the Shepherd Center to be greeted by 30+ hashers, skydivers and other friends cheering me on! We then adjourned to the garden for lunch and relaxation. It was awesome and caught me totally by surprise. Wednesday night was another enjoyable rugby practice. Thursday started out rather bland but ended on a good note when another potential employer gave me a call. And then there was Friday.

Friday was a day of mixed emotions. I finally am in a position to not rehab full-time, but that means I must leave my "home away from home", the Shepherd Center. They've become family so it's not so easy. Aside from that, I also found out that I must undergo another surgery shortly. We all know that my left foot is anatomically scrambled, but the doctors in Birmingham were so intent on keeping me alive that they forgot to mention the damage to my right foot.

I have to have the fourth metatarsal removed from my right foot because it was damaged in such away that it attempt to poke out the bottom of my foot when I walk. It's not a pretty picture, but the good news is that I can't feel it. When even an untrained eye such as mine can see how bad it is in an x-ray, you know something has to be done. Hopefully, the surgery will not interfere with my job search. I'll no more in a week or so when it gets scheduled. The updates may slow down for a while but they won't stop. I'm looking into setting up my own web site and transferring all of the existing information to it. The links will be set up properly once it's done.

April 27 - One Year Anniversary of the Accident - By Fag Hag

Well, a year has passed and I have to say that I feel so fortunate to be a part of such a wonderful family. I was not sure where my place was in the hash world until I was fully embraced by the love of you all. I am reminded of this time and time again, but I feel it resonating once again. Seeing the kind words about Studda and the support that we all share in times of need and hope just reminds me how fortunate I am to be a part of this world. It is nice to know that we may say crude things and sing raunchy songs and run through swamps together, but our glue is what we hold in our hearts as true, honest, caring people.

I want to sincerely thank you all for everything you have done over the past year - every word and sentiment has meant more than I can ever write in one posting.

So, here's to another year of happy challenges for me and bagless - and I am glad we have you there every step of the way - yup, step :-)

On On
Fag Hag

April 12 (ish) - Update From Bagless

Aaaaaaaahhhhhhhh! Does anyone have a saw? I don't care if you remove my arm in the process, but get this damn cast off! On top of the cast, I have been in my power chair all weekend! OK, no more whining.

For those of you who actually read the updates prior to the server crash, I know that these do not encompass all of the items but my memory doesn't work. So deal with it! :-)

April 7 (ish)- Update From Bagless

I have graduated to a rolling walker that provides no weight assistance. I was able to walk just over 10 ft. before I was too tired to continue. The bad news is that my right arm will require stronger steps to make it right. Sometime in the next week or two a cast will be placed on my arm in such a position as to stretch the bicep and rotate the forearm. Hopefully, after number of weeks I will be able to move my right arm up more normally. The cast will be on for four days and will then be turned into a splint to be worn at night.

April 1 - Update From Bagless (No Fooling!)

In addition to my recent increase in attendance at local area hashes, I've actually had a few achievements and setbacks during therapy. Last week saw three successes: I was able to put on and tie both of my sneakers, I was able to walk 65 ft. in a weight assist walker, and I helped wash a car while standing in a frame. I was extremely pleased by my ability to tie knots because it was evidence of the increase of my fine motor control, something that most cervical level spinal cord injury patients don't get back. As for the walking, it was a surprising achievement that I did not cross my feet and trip because my abductors are not working properly. Washing the car was fun because of gorgeous weather and just being outside, but trying to stand and maintain balance was extremely difficult. Some new goals to work on for certain.

On the not-so-happy side, I picked up a bug sometime in the past week and have been unable to kick a moderate grade fever for this entire week. It has greatly limited my ability to do physical activity during rehab. In addition to being sick, my therapists have decided that I need an AFO (ankle-foot orthotic) and a cast to assist with removing the bad muscle tone in my right leg and right arm, respectively. A mold was made yesterday to create the orthotic which will hold my ankle in the correct alignment and help alleviate tension in my ligaments of the foot and ankle to help prevent the spasms that I continue to get in a leg. Sometime of the next week, my right hand and arm will be placed in a cast for three days to straighten it out. Once the cast is removed it will be turned into a splint that I wear at night. Hopefully, all of these things will turn into positives in the near future but they are at the moment setbacks.

Until then, I keep just chugging along. :-)

March 11 - Update from Bagless

I returned to rehab on March 1. My adjustment has been somewhat difficult because I come home completely exhausted every day. Of course, that's supposed to happen so I guess it's not too bad. :-) My therapist, Christy, had me up and walking my first week back. Yesterday, she moved me from a frame that provides weight assists to a frame in which I walk completely under my own strength. I was able to take 10 steps before my knees buckled. We roll the dice and came out winners. Totally awesome! Between the difficult physical therapy and wheelchair rugby, I'm in bed by 9 p.m. every night. (10 p.m. on rugby nights) One of my goals for this therapy session is to depart being able to walk for 100 ft. in a walker. Another goal is to be able to pass the driver's exam with the appropriate modifications to my van. For the time being, I'll drive using hand controls because my legs are not strong enough for fast reactions.

Additionally, I've registered for the Georgia Tech Alumni Career Fair on April 13. I'm actually excited to begin the interview process. I know the job market isn't ideal but I'm sick and tired of living in the hospital or my bedroom.

Things are definitely going well. I still can't believe that it has only been 11 months but then I realize it has only been 11 months. My rate of recovery still has my doctor's and therapist's jaws dropping. Personally, I don't have a problem being almost miraculous. It is, however, really wearing me down both physically and mentally. There exists only a finite amount of energy that I can tap.

February 18 - Update From Bagless

As I am sure that everyone has realized, the time for slacking is over. (Of course nobody told me when the time to slack started) :-) As of Friday last week, I have started practicing with the Shepherd Smash twice a week. The Smash is a wheelchair rugby team for quads. Wheelchair rugby is a combination of basketball, hockey and bumper cars. I have a lot of learning to do as to the rules and strategies. I also have a whole bunch of training to do to be able to keep up with these guys in wheelchairs. I'll let you know is more practices occur.

Additionally, my return to rehab has moved up a couple weeks. My new start date is March 8.

Well, I'm going to cut this update short, but I will update again soon. (Meaning not my typical 2 to 4 weeks)

January 30 - Update from Bagless

For the past few weeks I have not posted any updates because I wasn't sure what to say. However now I am able to post a few key things.

Some good news
The effects of the Baclofen pump which weakened my leg and abdomen muscles are being overcome. I have been going to the weight room three days a week and I'm seeing significant increases in most strength. Last week, we began to do squats. I would hold onto a bar on the wall, put my feet on the floor and stand up out of my chair and to sit back down. I can now do two sets of 10. Although I have to hold onto the wall because of my instability, I don't think it will be long before I can stand unassisted. Additionally, I can finally reach my left hand over my head. As soon as I can get my right hand to do the same, putting a shirt on and taking it off will be very simple.

Some not so good:
Unfortunately, I was hoping to return to therapy on February 2. That return has been postponed because a lot of the present inpatients are doing very well in their therapy so there are no slots available. There is a chance that I can return to therapy on February 9, but is more likely that I won't return until March. Until then, I'll just have to keep practicing what I've been taught and strengthening the muscles that I have functioning. I have my fingers crossed. :-)

I hope the new year is treating you well.

On on,
Bagless

December 27 - Update From Bagless

Hello all, I hope the holidays are treating you well!

My delay in updating was intended to keep worry at bay, as I was about to have surgery. All went well with the surgery and am back at home recuperating nicely. The surgery was to place a medicine pump in my abdomen to supply a constant flow of anti-spasm drugs to my spine. So far there have been some great results - my spasms in my legs and belly are greatly reduced and now I can move muscles that I couldn't before because the spasms were in the way. And one of the best outcomes is the reduction of meds by 16 pills a day (I think that means I can drink more than one beer after I adjust) - but they took away the valium, sorry guys. I can almost think straight now!

Another positive thing is that I am taking a break from therapy - I am getting some much needed down time and rest. I hadnt realized how burnt-out I was. I should go back feb 2nd.

Everything Steamer wrote in her update was true..see, I am not the only one bragging :-)

I hope to see many of you at Cheddarhead T minus five days and counting. I may not be bowling this year - but I can still eat my weight in curds and brats.

Wishing y'all a safe and wonderful new year!

On-On to Cheese Curds
Bagless

December 14 - Message From Greg's Mom

As this year draws to a close I wanted to thank all of you for the overwhelming support you have given Greg. There have been so many wonderful things done for us both apparent and done behind the scenes by so many people it is hard know where to begin to express our appreication. Just know that every gesture and effort on your behalf has aided in the wonderful progress Greg has made. The thoughts and wishes he has received from his friends around the world has kept us all going. We shall be erternally grateful to all of you. A special thank you is extended to Greg’s fraternity brothers, his Hash friends, and to the NFL for their help in raising money for a trust fund for Greg. Their efforts has been invaluable under the circumstances.

We do have so much to be thankful for, however, you can be sure we will be very happy to close the book on this year. While Greg has a few more mountains and mole hills to climb, we look forward to a new beginning in 2004. Your continued support and contacts will keep Greg’s spirits high and keep him on the road to reach his greatest potential.

May you and your families be blessed in the new year with good health and happiness.

Thank you all for being there for Greg.

Fran Strubeck (Greg’s mom)

November 14 - More Progess - By Bagless

In case I haven't mentioned this before, one of my personal goals is to make my physical terrorists jaw drop at least once every other week. On Tuesday the 4th, my PT decided that I was being particularly lazy since I was slow to return from the weight room for her session (OK it was really because I played hooky to pick up my van that day) but either way, she contrived quite a challenge...after she grew bored with stripping my wheelchair of parts, she stood in front of me and barked her order "stand up". Normally I would have questioned her sanity (and mine as well) but since my mom, Alexis, and two other friends were there with camera in hand, I couldn't very well say no. So, she blocked my knees, grabbed my butt (too bad she's married), and I'll be damned if I actually did it - 7 times in fact. The video shows my beet red face and shaking arms, but I caught the words "you f----ing rock" from my PT. I guess that qualifies as a jaw drop.

The following Tuesday, we went one step further, well actually 8. In a moving safety harness, my PT challenged me to outdo myself again. I managed to not only stand, but walk 8 steps - with weight bearing (and two assistants) - before utter exhaustion returned me to my wheelchair. I think I bought myself a few weeks of jaw drop time since neither of these was expected.

Further progress in other areas (arms, hands) has been fairly limited these past few weeks. And I caught a bug that has kept me home for a few days, but the time off might be a really good thing. On a good note, I am glad so many of you were able to come out for happy hour! It was a nice diversion from the typical Friday night in Smyrna! I hope to have you all out here again soon, but until then I am sure I will see some of you at the Orphan thanksgiving at Sani & Bunny’s.

On-On to blue skies
Bagless

October 31 - Clarification - By Bagless

To clear up any misunderstanding..my previous definition of dressing includes: being able to pull a pair of shorts from my ankles to my thighs. I couldn't get them over my feet or butt without assistance. As for the shirt, I needed help getting it over my head but otherwise I could do it. So, for now it will be go go gadget therapist or me continuing to build arm strength.

Now that we have the clarification out of the way - here is the new stuff. Somebody got the idea in their head that I would be safe in the kitchen, safe enough to bake blueberry muffins. Well, I suprised myself by actually getting pans and ingredients from the shelves. Opening packages and cracking eggs was a significant mess :-) They did not enjoy cleaning up after me :-) The muffins did taste good when they were done though. It was a very pleasing sign that my hands and arms are beginning to work! Beyond that, therapy consisted of mostly twisting me into pretzel shapes (stretching) and learning how to roll over and sit up in bed - all in all a painful and relatively uneventful week. But continuing to show promise for the future.

On on to next week's pain and hopfully more advancement!

October 26th - By Bagless

To my chagrin, I have found that typing on the computer has become far more difficult recently. Hence this update was delayed until I had someone available to type for me...
We'll start with the bad news for a change..a surgery that was scheduled for this week has been postponed until December. The surgery would most likely have reduced the spasms in my legs. I think that might actually be all of the bad news...

And now the good news. I have made some significant acheivements. In the past two weeks, I have been able to transfer in and out of a car with minimal assistance. I have also re-learned how to brush my teeth, shave, and dress with less assistance (of course Fag Hag is just hearing this and has now denied me all help from here on out :-) She doesn't realize that it took me an hour to shave and brush my teeth and another hour to dress - OK now she says she'll help me for a little while longer. I can even feed myself if I have adapted silverware - and my left hand - odd since I used to be a righty. I guess what they say is true about lefties...interpret as you wish...
Things to look forward to - being able to push my manual chair on a surface other than tile and a slope other than flat, being able to use a knife, open a door, and that is probably enough for the next few weeks.
I had a wonderful time seeing everyone at nc/sc and the Atlanta Home Crawl. I am looking forward to get out again and seeing you all soon.

October 12th - Back to Shepherd's - By Bagless

October 6th was my celebrated return to rehab at the Shepherd Center. My terrorists were waiting with oppen arms and evil grins. Since the foot surgery was so successful, they have placed me in the standing frame everyday. Additional methods of stretching and strengthening have kept me going to bed ealier than ever before. :-)

I have also been forbidden the use of my powerchair in order to capitalize on the retruning muscle function of the arms. All in all, I am one sore puppy, but happy they are pushing me so hard. I definately needed the time off at home for physical relief and mental reset. I hadn't realized how burnt out I had become.

Looking forward to posting more good news in the near furture.

September 23rd - More Good News - By Bagless

We have good news for the latest update. Contrary to my deep concerns about my foot surgery, it went very well. I am scheduled to get the stitches removed on Oct 1st and have been approved for complete weight-bearing exercise as of that date.

That was the good news - here's the greatest news. I have been accepted back into the rehab program beginning Oct 6 for hopefully another 3 to 4 weeks. The primary goal is to have me standing by the end of that time. We haven't determined how much assistance will be needed for that standing -- but I DON'T CARE as long as I can get out of this chair. Even for a moment.

There is still an 80% probability that I will walk again - but it will likely take several more months.

Another section of good news is that my manual wheelchair has been ordered. I have now used the manual chair a total of 5 times with slowly improving success. I hope that within the next 2 to 3 months, I'll be strong enough to use a manual chair as my primary means of mobility - except when standing.

We've also ordered a device called a mobile-arm support which will assist me in raising my hand to my face. I can re-learn how to eat, shave, brush my teeth, etc. with this device.

My shoulder strength is still the limiting factor on arm mobility but I'm regaining strength continuously. I hope to retrieve 70% to 80% mobility in my arms within the next 4 to 6 months.

I am meeting with the state vocational rehab people this week to discuss home renovations so I can start working again. In the mean time, I am beginning to develop a business plan for a consulting & design agency for accessible home and apartment design. The concept is to target our aging population and handicapped population. Any suggestions or advice will be more than welcome - please email me at gbrakel@hotmail.com with tips, contacts, advice, etc.

That's all for now - I'll send new posts as I continue to progress.

Greg

September 18th - Bagless GOES HOME - By Fag Hag/Alexis

I am writing a message on behalf of Bagless since he has not been able to make an update lately...we will make sure we write a much longer one over the weekend.

He had surgery on his left foot on Tuesday to fix that bone and make it possible for future weight bearing...but a result - he had to leave therapy. So, he is at his house living in the basement for at least two weeks and hopefully insurance will come through and he will be able to go back full-time. He is pretty happy to have his big tv back and watch some movies on DVD and not have to wake up at 5:30 every morning - but he is missing the environment of Shepherd.

With that said, now would be a good time to send an e-mail if you have been meaning too - his spirits could drop a lot since he will be more isolated. Also, he will be able to take phone calls at home (770) 432-9338...I gave him a speakerphone and he can answer it (if he is sitting in the chair as opposed to bed). Also, because the therapy is not intense, visitors are welcome. Just call the house to see when a good time is for him. We will probably continue on with the potluck dinners - maybe a different day of the week though...

Well, I think that is enough rambling for now. Hope to see some of you soon. Look for a more personal update this weekend.

September 6th - Short Update - By Bagless

We have very few updates this week in terms of major progress. We do, however, have more information on the recently noted foot issue. Evidently I should listen to my secretary/girlfriend more often. All of the rods were removed from my foot by the time I came out o' my blissful narcotic fog. It turns out the cause of the problem, according to x-rays, is a piece of the shattered bone in my foot has healed downward. That piece of bone is what is causing the pressure sore on the bottom of my foot. So now I am sporting a modified shoe with orthotic - but it is a temporary solution. I will be meeting with the docs yet again next week to determine a possible date for surgery. They still haven't figured out exactly how they are going to torture me - but I am sure they have a few options. I am looking forward to finding out more.

Well, at least they finally aknowledge I will be walking again.

Hopefully next week's update will have more good news.

Since the Atlanta Hash e-mail is not getting through to me (for reasons unknown) if you would like to otherwise harass me, please write to me at gbrakel@hotmail.com. At this address I will at least get a return e-mail address and can respond to you.

That's all for now.

August 29th - The Beat Goes On... By Bagless

For those of you that have reminded me that I have been slack in my updates to the website, Thank You and I apologize...

Here we go...

We will begin with the latest and positive notes. This week I finally succeeded in getting into the pool, and due to the wonderful flotation devices, I actually didn’t drown. It was however a somewhat sobering experience (something I have had to suffer through for four months). As a formerly better than average swimmer, being barely able to flap my arms while being towed through the water on my back was a little disturbing. But the lack of gravity made my muscles feel really good. Secondly, I have finally been given the OK weight training on most of my upper body, so the weight room has become fun again. And last, and the most exciting and rewarding experience occurred today. I actually walked. They used a contraption called a lite gait, which is a wonderful combination of hydraulics and suspension harnesses. A combination weight belt/rock climbing harness was attached and four suspension straps were clipped on around my waist, I was then lifted into a standing position such that minimal weight was borne by my legs. While I made the walking motions, the therapists checked my muscles to see if things were working. And I was able to do everything I need to in order to move forward and backwards. My therapists enjoyed poking fun at me for staring at my legs as I watched them move (instead of looking ahead like I am supposed to) while we walked around the gym for 40 minutes. Net result – My terrorist Christy said that although there are no guarantees I will walk the trails through the mountains any time soon – I will walk again.

For those of you who know my fondness of travel, I was able to go on a training outing to the Atlanta Airport, where Delta provided a training session for airport and plane accessibility and transfers. And since I have so many skymiles to burn – who knows where I will be going next :-)

With such advances, occasionally come setbacks. During one of the nursing inspections, a significant concern was noted on one of the metal rods stabilizing my left foot. We are meeting with the docs next week to see what we need to do about this. The short-term result is no weight bearing on that foot, so we will just have to stick to working on mastering the manual chair.

I will attempt to be more diligent in my updates, providing my secretary doesn’t get on me for u

August 12th - The Therapist From Hell Gets Results - By Bagless

Todays rehab brought some new surprises...

My new physical terrorist, known as Christy, again pushed me past the limits I had perceived. In the morning, I spent an hour turning the pages of a Sports Illustrated while standing up in the "EZ Stand" machine - nice name for a torture device, right? Although everybody, including myself expected me to either pass out or projectile vomit in the first few minutes, I managed to last the entire time wisecracking to my terrorist hehehehe. In response to my "kind and tender" words (LOL) Christy decided to put me in a manual wheel chair later in the afternoon because she thought my weight shift (you know the reclining barcalounger) was idle time. With a pair of borrowed leather gloves on hand, I managed to not only move the 10 feet Christy wanted me to, I made a 300+ ft trip, including an elevator ride downstairs, to show off to my old therapist. I know now that the physical terrorists bribed the construction crew to intentionally build subtle hills in the floor of this hospital.

It is now many hours since this achievement and the muscles in my arms still laugh at me when I ask them to do something HAHA!

If this is one week in day program rehab, I can only wonder what will happen in the next five!

Remember, there are 29 of you that have promised to make your first jump when I return to skydiving - that day might be sooner than you thought hehehehehe

On-On to Blue Skies
Bagless

August 12th - Thanks to all from Bagless

Although I wish I was as eloquent as Dribbles (on the AH4 Forum), let me try to put my feelings to words...

It was so incredibly wonderful to see so many of my friends come together on Saturday night. As my first venture out into the world in three and a half months, I was deeply touched by the support that surrounds me. The cards, e-mails, and visits kept me going through the beginning of my recovery, but the welcome and love I felt from you all on Saturday night truly reminded me why I keep fighting. Although I joke about my stubborness and insistence to prove the doctors wrong, it is my desire to return to my friends and family that gives me strength.

There are not enough words to express that amount of gratitude that I have.

On-On to Blue Skies
Bagless

August 7th - Update From Bagless Himself! - (Transcribed of course....)

To give a brief update from my newly-overly-exhausted state, I are a graduate!

I have recently moved from the inpatient care of the Shepherd Center to their "Day Program", which is an accelerated rehab program. I discharged from Shepherd on Monday, August 4th and moved into the Shepherd Place Apartments just a few blocks down the street. Whereas the inpatient program was three hours of therapy a day with education on the side, Day Program is Therapy from 9-4 with one hour for lunch. At this time, I do not know how long I will be in the program, but the typical stay is 2-6 weeks. I think I will find out my duration on Friday. As for the apartments, we were led to believe this place was a dump, yet it is actually quite homey, except for the bright blue wall and the crappy hospital bed (and I used to complain about the ones in the hospital).

To sum up my latest milestones - I am now able to lift my arms 6" off the armrests of my wheelchair, I can lightly grasp items with my left hand, I am regaining function in two more ab muscles (gotta get a 6-pack somehow), I am learning to feed and groom myself with the use of an arm support, I am starting to flex my left foot (shocking given the damage to it). I have been reintroduced to a weight room - just when I thought I had given up weights for curling beers instead! And my weight trainer has delusions of granduer and thinks I will be doing standing and seated squats in a week in a half.

They thought they were doing a good thing by giving me my own sip-n-puff powered wheelchair, but I think they will be revoking my license very soon since I have had at least 8 significant accidents and a few fender benders while learning to drive (And it hasn't even been a week). I know how the frog in frogger feels as I try to cross peachtree! And rumor has it they are going to let me drown myself in the pool next week.

Ok - so its not so short but it is an update. I look forward to seeing many of you on Saturday as I drive drunk around the brewery after one beer - look out!

On-On to Blue Skies
Bagless

July 30 - Happy Birthday Bagless - Now We Have Some Bad News...

Just found out that Greg's employer has decided that they can no longer afford to keep Greg on payroll, and so, as of August 1st, he will be unemployed. There will be no severance either, as they feel that his "time off" serves as severance. So, no severance, no income, and no insurance from his employer as of August 1st. Oh,and due to the nature of the situation, he doesn't qualify of unemployment either. Ugh...

This, of course, is why we've been planning this fundraiser for Greg. As you can imagine, now, more than ever, Greg needs your help. PLEASE invite everyone you can think of to the fundraiser - tell them about the situation, and be sure to mention the silent auction. He REALLY needs our support now.

Oh, and today is Greg's birthday. Lovely timing on the news, huh?

July 17 - Bagless' stay at Shepherds to be extended

Your webmaster went to visit with Greg last night, and was really impressed by the amount of arm movement Bagless has in his left hand. While a bit shakey, he was able to hit two buttons on his wheelchair timer thingy which reminds him to blow into his tube to rotate the chair back and forth. When asked about this, Bagless said that this progress is going to keep him at Shepherds' until August 4th, assuming his insurance company agrees to the extension.

As tired of the hospital as he is, he made it very clear that he wants to stay as he is convinced his recovery is enhanced greatly at Shepherds. He will soon start "pool therapy" which he is really looking forward to.

Other than that, once he is out of Shepherds, he will move to an apartment owned by Shepherds located about three blocks from the hospital. He will stay there for about 2-4 weeks, and then will be looking for a wheelchair friendly apartment for a five or six month stay.

He also said that he plans to be at the fundraiser on August 9th, and hopes to make an appearance at the SkyDive hash on August 16th.

July 15 - Greg Moved to New Room

Greg has been moved to room 216 today.

July 14 - Silent Auction Items Posted

Click here to see the current list of items which will be autioned off at the Fund Raiser on August 9th. If you have any items that you'd like to donate, please contact David "SWAB the Dick" Arnoff to coordinate.

July 11 - Update from Bagless - yep, BAGLESS!!

Yes - you read correctly - this is Bagless (with some assistance for typing). We have some new, very positive updates from rehab! With some very significant assistance from the therapists - I stood for the very first time since the accident. With one holding my knees locked, another holding my hips, and another holding my shoulders - I stood for over one minute before dizziness knocked me back down. And if that wasn't enough, I was able to maintain a sitting position, unsupported, for almost one minute. As a result, my newly rediscovered abs are screaming in pain - but I am feeling pretty good about myself. I could go on for some time with the goals I am reaching - but this gives you an idea. That said - I am once again looking forward to what the next week of terrorism brings.

It was wonderful seeing everyone on the 4th! It has been wonderful receiving the e-mails of support, but was even more encouraging to see many of you in person. Thank you all for the support you have provided - it is certainly helping me through the difficult days of this rehabilitation.

I am looking forward to seeing many of you on August 9th, some of you on August 16th for the skydive hash (I think I will miss the plane rides this year - but will be on the ground to see you all in), and hopefully more often thereafter as I continue my rehab process.

I am going to try and get my three hours of sleep - before they wake me up to start my Saturday rehab - can't a guy get a vacation around here?

I hope to give you more updates in the not too distant future.

On-On & Blue Skies

Bagless

July 11 - Update from Alexis/Fag Hag

Greg received a visit from one of the marketing people at Shepherd who was on his way to

Greg and Alexis - 7/10/03


Birmingham - UAB to be exact. He wanted to bring a picture of Greg to give some of the nurses a better
idea of who he is without tubes and a halo and all that morphine :-) This was the picture he took.

He stopped in last night to fill us in on the visit and he said they are all still keeping up with his progress on the AH4 website and look forward to meeting him soon.

On another note...Greg stood up yesterday :-) with help of course - but he thought it was pretty cool!!!

July 4 - Greg meets Pub Crawlers at a Beer Stop!

Easily the highlight of the day for many of us had to be seeing Greg outside the confines of a hospital room, and in the daylight. As the pub crawl team arrived at the Rocky's Brick Oven stop, we were pleased to see Greg waiting for us with a HUGE smile on his face. Many photos were taken, and Public Enema serenaded Bagless with a rousing rendition of "The Guy From Decatur".

July 3 - Greg is tentatively to be at one of the Pub Crawl Stops!

If all goes well, we can expect to see Greg at the Rocky's Pizza stop on this year's Peachtree Pub Crawl!

June 26 - Greg moved to a new room - 210

Greg has been moved to a new room - room number 210. Also, it should be noted that he has a bladder infection, and everyone is advised to wash up after visiting him. The infection seems to be resistant to anti-biotics.

June 25 - Greg goes to a Braves GameGreg at the Braves Game Along with (L-R) Asshole, Big Bore and Fag Hag.

A group of six patients and some staff from Shepherds went to the Braves Game on Wednesday Night, and Bagless was one of the group! Alas, the Shepherds staff pretty much made it clear that he wasn't allowed to have any beer, but your webmaster put a cup of Bud on his head so he could feel some of the frosty goodness.

June 17 - Comprehensive Update from Fag Hag/Alexis

I finally have a few minutes to myself to sit down and write to you all about the things taking shape at the Shepherd Center. Bagless has been there exactly four weeks – and have they been busy!!! He is currently in class or therapy for about six hours a day and is working really hard to regain as much strength and motion as possible before going home on the 18th of July. Yup, you read right, he will be going home in four weeks and three days (this also means that he will be at his own party after all on the 9th of August). After that he will be going to the Shepherd day program for as long as his insurance will allow. But the healing will be far from over then. Those spinal cords are funny things and they can take their sweet time when it comes to reduced swelling, but we knew that already.

Besides the check-out date, we have reached a few other milestones as well. As I let Asshole know last Tuesday, the pins and screws came out of the left leg. Although the leg no longer looks like an 18th century torture device, he has a great deal of discomfort and they are reexamining the foot to determine if he needs more casting or the like to heal it some more. After the leg surgery, he was blessed with having the feeding tube and the trach tube removed from his neck, as well as receiving clearance to have the collar removed from his neck. All this by Thursday of last week – very busy!! He has taken to calling his physical and occupational therapists, his terrorists – I think they might actually be making him work – HARD! Last week he did 30 leg kicks with his right leg without assistance and was reading a magazine and even playing the card game Uno with the assistance of zero-gravity slings.

Even with all of these great milestones, we were once again reminded that he is indeed in the hospital and is still dealing with some set backs. He was hit with a yucky infection overnight on Saturday, which he seems to be healing from nicely after all of the antibiotics made their way into his system. So we just once again ask that you call either Fran or me to arrange a visit. Anyone is welcome to come, BUT YOU NEED TO CALL FIRST. This isn’t to weed the weird ones out, because then none of us could go see him, but to make sure he is up to it. You would hate to drive 20 minutes to be turned away, right?

I just want to say again how much your support and friendship means to Bagless and the rest of us. It is going to be a very long road ahead and knowing that you are all there for us means so much. Keep the e-mails and good thoughts coming his way! And by the way, he does not have his cell phone with him – it is a work cell phone and I have it, so if you are calling to talk to him you will most likely end up with me! <g>

June 15 - Greg has high Fever

After a full day of visiting with friends near and far, Greg wound up with a high fever that required him to be iced down - trust us, you DON'T want to know where one of the ice packs went! Talk about shrinkage!

June 10 - Message from Alexis/Fag Hag

Just a quick message to let everyone know that Greg is back in Surgery today to remove parts they installed in his left leg.

June 6 - Note from Fran, Greg's mother.

Greg is loving the emails that are being sent to him. They are delivered just late afternoon and we have a chance for him to read them before dinner. Just about everyone brings a smile to his face. Keep them coming! It's great.

This was the week of therapy and more evals of muscles working. Greg is up, dressed, and in his wheelchair (eight hours a day) everyday now. He is learning to negotiate the chair with mouth controls right now. We expect that he will be zooming around the halls pretty soon.

May 31 - Visit by Asshole, the Web Master

Sorry for the subterfuge over the past few days - Greg actually got out of ICU on Tuesday, but wanted me to hold off posting that info, as he wasn't ready for a flood of visitors. That being said, he's still not looking for a large group, but is able to see limited numbers, as long as they call Fran first to make sure that he's going to be free.

Now, on with the new news.

Greg is in room 214 - and he is talking. Clearly. He is able to carry on real conversations, and is totally aware of everything that happened, and what his prognosis is. He is in very good spirits, and was able to curl the fingers on his left hand for me. Uncurling, well, he's not there yet, but this is a very positive development. Truth be told, until the swelling goes down on the spinal column, the Doctors will not know for sure what the extent of any paralysis will be, and that could take 4-6 months.

Greg also ate some solid food while I was there - chicken breast, corn and potato salad. This is a serious step up from the mush he was eating, but he says that his stomach is still not used to food, so he gets a bit queasy. I offered to sneak in some pizza or something like that, and he said he's not ready for that, but will be soon.

All in all, he is making remarkable progress - a night and day difference from Birmingham, that's for sure.

If you plan to visit him, it is best to try for the weekend, as he has a ton of physical therapy during the week, and may be too weak to handle visitors - again, PLEASE call Fran, 520-490-3709, before just popping by to make sure he'll be able to handle visitors, and do not come in large groups, as he is sharing his room.

May 26 - Request from Greg via Fran, his mother.

Greg is having good days and bad days right now. He has requested no visitors until he is out of ICU and off the critical list. We will let you know when he gets to the step down unit. Please call before you go to the hospital. We will schedule visits for 15 minutes at a time once Greg is ready.

May 24 - Update from Fran, Greg's Mom

Today was a big day. Greg was breathing on his own for six and half hours and was sitting straight up in the wheelchair for two and half hours. He is starting to drink water also. Shephard's Center supplied him with a CD player with "virtual" glasses for viewing. After watching golf his plan was to watch(CD)Ghostbuster. His spirits are good.

May 23 - Update from Fran, Greg's Mom

Greg was introduced to his wheelchair today for a two hour try. He was breathing on his own for two, two hour stints, one in the morning and one this evening. It was hard work. It appears that the pneumonia maybe under control; still running a slight temperature. Perhaps tomorrow that will be behind him too. He is able to watch TV now and has mouth controls for channel selection and volume control. We are very glad to be in Atlanta now.

It is important for you all to know that we could not have gotten through our Birmingham stay without all of your messages, visits, and the wonderful care and support the Trama Team gave to Greg and to us. It has all been tremendous and got us through our bleakest hours. With that behind us, everyday we are seeing positive gains in Greg's progress. He enjoys and smiles with every communication that has come his way. Thank you all for being there!

May 21 - Greg asks for LIMITED visitors while in ICU - Phone Call From Fag Hag/Alexis

Alexis had a brief visit with Greg last night, and she said that while he is in ICU, and space is VERY limited, please hold off on visits for now. Greg is off the Morphine, so he's not the most comfortable person in the whole world, but this request is mostly due to the lack of space in ICU, the noise, and little privacy.

Once we have other reports, we ask that you respect his wishes. Alexis is now off to her vacation, but reports will continue...

May 20 - Email Greg Brakel!